Meow wrote:This has got to be the worse week of my life this year because I have the flu and got food poisoned -_-, my bf thinks I'm cheating on him because I talk to my friend (wow..-_-) but the worse thing is my friend passed away on the 25th, 2 years after his mother. They both had brain cancer..He was 19..taken away too soon. Seeing his father, little brother and sister cry made me fall apart..but seeing his grandmother telling him to wake up while crying her heart out killed me even more..May angels lead him in..R.I.P.
How's your week going?
awww hun, sorry to hear what happened to your friend. I really know how you feel.
as in for your bf, sigh... they all find a reason to be jealous of. Just be yourself and let him know that the other dude is just a friend.
my week? uhmmm was hard i must say, but finally i got my new pc. So i guess all that work worth it.
If the concept of us being all one consciousness's and us being one thing that lives endless through the cycle of nature the only clear emotion would be understanding . we be in a utopia
bad stuff:
1. havent been on sro for a week cus of the ??? error.
2. im bored out of my mind without a game to play, so i just post random stuff in topics everywhere.
3. almost got kicked out of the house cus my parents thought i was smoking weed cus they intercepted and misinterperted a msg i got on xfire while i was out of the house, and im almost positive they still think i am even though i told them otherwise.
4. im unemployed, cus no place is hiring where i live right now.
5. im broke bcus of the above, and almost couldnt pay a credit card bill.
6. my friends love to spend money on random useless shit right in front of me and tell me to get stuff too even though ive told them im flat out broke, and i need their help to get a job somewhere.
7. havent slept much lately, bcus of lots of hw.
8. ive spent 2 yrs at this hell hole of a junior college and i still have no idea what i want to do for a career, and the only thing the counselors here can tell you is if you're doing good for a plan you think of for what you want and how to get there.
9. i lack motivation to do well in any of my classes bcus of the above.
10. im depressed for all of the above.
11. my mom told me depression actually runs in my family bcus she realized how depressed ive been about everything.
12. i cant talk to a doctor about it or get tested to c if i should b on pills cus i outgrew a pediatrition a couple yrs ago and my family's doctor isnt accepting new patients unless a relative asks which no1 has done yet.
13. this in turn made me more depressed bcus i realized that there basically isnt anything i can do about the situation.
neutral stuff:
1. my grandma's visiting for a few days. grandma's cool and all but i basically am not allowed to hang out with my friends at all while shes here, and im pretty much even forced to not do my hw so i can spend more time with her
2. i turn 21 in a couple weeks. cool cus i can get drunk legally now, but also not cus my friends will ask me to buy lots of alcohol cus most of em arent 21 yet.
good stuff:
1. my grades r finally starting to go up (somehow).
2. i will prbly get a couple decent console games and a season pass to a ski resort for snowboarding trips over the winter for my bday so i wont b bored.
3. im in decent shape again due to my soccer class twice a week.
to sum it all up the negatives outweigh the postives by a long shot, so im feeling bored, pissed off, depressed and just plain stressed. in short im going insane.
Tomorow! Get on MSN or xfire..I must sing you a song Meow 
Good night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
