feba wrote:PsYch008 wrote:yea i know, i need to want to help myself... thats the issue, im fighting with myself, i know i should stop but i just dont feel like it. its really kinda shitty...
yea man, if you have an addictive personality and you know it, dont ever do any addictive drugs... you would be farked.
It's not really chemical addiction you need to worry about with me (although I used to be addicted to caffeine), but thanks for the thought.
As to wanting to quit, have you tried visiting some propaganda scare sites? That what turned me into a vegan for quite awhile (which I still want to do again sometime)
what are your other mental troubles? if you care to tell.
Well, diagnosed, ADHD and Bipolar disorder.
Undiagnosed, I think I have Aspergers, and probably a few other things I wouldn't have an idea of, maybe depression?
I think the best description of my problems would probably be "lonely selfish perverted asshole, who would say he cares about no one other than himself, but doesn't really care about himself either so that wouldn't be accurate"
I am also ADD. No i havent tried any scare sites, but the problem with me is... i just wouldnt believe them at all and they would probably just make me laugh...
and as for your "lonely selfish perverted asshole...etc" thing, that fits me pretty well also. lol.
Mugen† wrote:call me what ever u want it does not offened me i whished u well even if that wasnt seen from my msg im sry if u missunderstood it. Its great tought that you had to share your misforutnate expriance whit all otheres here i seriosly hope u get over that" right now i dont want to quit"thing unfortunatly this isnt one of those thing that "its never too late for"
i hope u come to your sences and start getting off....beffore its too late
well, why did you blow up the lettering when i specifically said i was making it small to not offend anyone. don't be a dimwhit and i won't call you one. alright. thanks for the good wishes.
Reise wrote:Unfortunately heroin isn't a drug you can just stop taking. It doesn't work that way.
Personally I'm not addicted to anything. I've never been diagnosed with any conditions, and I only occasionally smoke weed or cigarettes, or drink.
This is very true, you can't just stop... well, you CAN... it just hurts like hell and puts you through hell...
exality wrote:well man ...i really think you need to take care of this...ive never been addicted to drugs so i cant say much but i really think you need to do somthing...i relate it to this- i was getting really depressed and i said yea w/e ill get over it and then my mom actually did somthing she took me to my family physician and it was the short 10 min convo we had that changed my life forever. he said that they cared and just explained everything in a very helpfull way...then 2 or 3 days later i woke up and i thought i cant do this shit anymore **** this life ect.~~~ and i thought to that 10 min convo and im like this isnt how it should be so i went to my mom and im like this isnt working i need help! ...i got put in a behavorial hospital and it saved my life!....i dont know if that story helped but all im trying to say is dont take it upon yourself to try somthing this difficult let others help you.
thanks for the advice, but i know myself pretty well, and if i don't stop on my own, then i won't stop. Sending me somewhere will not help unless i want to go there. It may get to that point if i decide i want to quit, and cannot do it on my own.
Blackchocob0 wrote:If you kicked meth you can kick heroine bro, especially if you don't shoot.
My mom shot up. I found a fucken syringe with a needle in it under my driver seat when I was cleaning out my car. She had borrowed it a couple days before. She stole all the change I had in my cup holder(easily over $20)...and left somethin in my car that coulda got me incredibly farked over.
Not to mention I could have poked myself with it when I was reaching under the seat - who knows how many people that crazy lady has shared needles with.
God talking about it makes me so pissed at her.
yea bro, i know i CAN quit... its just wanting to... i have always been a fan of pain killers, and other downers, and H is the king of downers so obviously i am going to like it a lot. I need to get to the point of WANTING to quit. I'm sure it will be soon.
Yea, i have shot up before, but only once and it was in another state, i said to myself "i will go down to san fran and get shooting up out of my system and then i will forget about it and never do it again" and it worked.
im sorry to hear about your mom bro, she is clean now right? if so tell her great job, cuz shooting that shit up is almost impossisble to drop. it is basically the best feeling in the entire world... one of my friends used to shoot up, and he used to say " the feeling was so great, it outweighed any other feeling in the world, i didnt even care about sex because the feeling of shooting up was 10x better." and i tend to agree because the one weekend when i did shoot up, it was fuckin insane man... seriously unlike any other feeling in the world. but i havent done it since simply because i know if i did i would be farked for life.
i personally do not believe you can be addicted to weed, i used to smoke over an eighth a day, and then i just stopped. with no side effects... anything you can just stop and have no withdrawls, i dont consider that being addicted. if i were to just stop doing what i am doing now... i would not be able to get out of bed for a week. THAT'S addiction. and it isnt very fun.