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My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 7:55 am
by MastaChiefX
For those that don't know me, then this may be of little interest to you, but then again it may be the most important thing you will read. Let me tell you a story, my story. I'll try to make it worth your time, so you leave this post with a new attitude on life. I started playing video games just like every kid, and enjoyed them. Started out with super smash, golden eye, the classics. Played halo with my close friends for hours on end till I had every badge, an accomplishment that came with a lot of good times. As I aged I lived a normal life, had friends, girls, hobbies, everything that makes a life as normal as it will ever be. Then high school hit and my life drifted in a direction that is only clear in retrospect. While I would still go to the movies now and then, hangout with friends, I found myself playing more video games than ever. I thought to myself, no big deal everyone plays video games, right? Slowly I spent more Friday nights on the computer playing Enemy Territory then going out. And thus it started, my addiction to video games. You may think "lol addicted to video games you can't be possibly that, its not crack or anything like that, and I can stop playing whenever I want." And while that may be true, I didn't stop. I played more and more. School wasn't as important as it used to be, I slowly drifted away from old friends and more towards a few people I was somewhat close with but never really hungout with. I played for hours and hours till 1, 2, even 3 in the morning on weekdays, and even later on weekends. I could go on forever, but you get the point, video games had become my life. If I wasn't playing, I had them somewhere in my thoughts, either making strategies for my next match, or wondering when I am going to level up, it was my passion and my life. And while I still ran cross-country and did very well, I was more worried about video games then running, or anything for that matter. I ate shitty, looked shitty, felt shitty. Girls were there, but I hadn't gone on a date with a girl in years. And then silkroad hit. It consumed my life like no other, as I wanted to win the battle with the bots so hard that I would devote all my time to doing so. 3000+ logged hours sitting behind my computer just playing some stupid game in some fairyland world. Then one day, I woke up. It hit me harder than any punch, that this isn't how life should be. It shouldn’t be spent behind some computer, hiding from the world. It wouldn't be easy for me, but I had to get out of this cycle and actually LIVE LIFE. So I quit, not instantly but over time. Even if I was just at home, I would limit the amount of playing I did, maybe replacing that time with TV or SRF. I called my friends and started going out and actually living. I created who I was, from scratch. And over time I spent less and less time on the computer, less time checking SRF, and pretty much quit SRF. And then one day, a friend of friend I met on MySpace became my girlfriend, and I actually felt like I was actually living my life again. Quitting video games was the best decision I have ever made.Now at UCF I find myself looking back in my past and wondering how I ever made it here, how I went from a video game nerd to something so much more. If I could I would scream at the top of my lungs, GET THE **** OFF THE COMPUTER AND LIVE LIFE. You only get one shot at life, take it, please. I'm sure there are people who only use SRF every once in a while or maybe silkroad when they are really bored, but I have a pretty good feeling there are people who don't, and know more people online they do in real life. This will be the last time I will ever post here, so please, do something with your life. I cannot stress enough how much better it is to live life on the edge, to feel heartbreak, happiness, failure. If at least one person can really change their life by reading this post, I will be so happy that they woke up. That they actually lived.
Thank you for those who read, those who were my friends online, and for those who respected me.
No Guts, No Glory.
Enjoy life, and be amazing at whatever you decide to do.
If you want to talk to me, contact me through AIM or email. Bye.

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 8:07 am
by Snoopy
MastaChiefX wrote:
Spoiler!


That was a great story Masta. I wouldn't call myself addicted, though I sometimes put my family, friends, and girlfriend behind my game.

Good luck and enjoy your new lifestyle :)

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 8:12 am
by Blurred
Man I am still addicted. It's my bday and here I am jobbing in silkroad... sad.

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 8:13 am
by Snoopy
Blurred wrote:Man I am still addicted. It's my bday and here I am jobbing in silkroad... sad.


Happy Birthday :)

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 8:15 am
by Blurred
Snoopy wrote:
Blurred wrote:Man I am still addicted. It's my bday and here I am jobbing in silkroad... sad.


Happy Birthday :)


Thanks :D

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 8:20 am
by brentonsbbe359
+1 to what snoopy said. I have to admit though, i really need to stop playing Combat Arms as much as i do.

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 8:22 am
by Blazedon
Nice story.




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The cake is a lie.

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 8:27 am
by Midori
Thanks for making me feel bad bro.

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 8:33 am
by BaronSengir
great story

edit
no i was not being sarcastic

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 8:36 am
by satman83
Nicely put man, and your right.

Thankfully i have university so am hardly never at home and when i do play games
its only for a few hours anyway :P

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 8:39 am
by Dead_Soul
o.o that was really good dude... although i've quit sro a long time ago & deleted it from my pc but i still read SRF all the time (off topic lounge anyway) but i do have real life friends..lots of them :love: right now we only hang out on thursdays coz of school & studying & shit but its much better than when i used to play sro :P i'd spend weekends trying to level my noobie char while my friends go out & have a nice time... but yea what u said is completely true :) & goodbye i guess.

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 9:03 am
by XemnasXD
use paragraphs.

don't see why having a life means no SRF though but with the state this place is in i can't blame you for never posting again...


have fun...

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 9:45 am
by *BlackFox
Nice story and good luck in your life and have fun.

XemnasXD wrote:don't see why having a life means no SRF though
QTF

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 12:08 pm
by heroo
bye bye, always enjoyed your stay here.

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 12:22 pm
by Avalanche
I agree 100% with what you said, I went with that transformation last November. I still visit SRF tho, it entertains me time to time. Hope your life goes well.

More and more old members are leaving mez :[

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 12:23 pm
by Homie
Crack is a hell of a drug.

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 12:45 pm
by Tig3ress
Ever since i joined srf, you have been my fave person.

Reading your posts when i was a noob, ahh good times.

T__T please dont go, I'll miss you!

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 1:00 pm
by Melez
Good story, goodbye. I don't really play much games tbh.. I spend about 80% of my computer time on forums. And going out is not an option for me.

bb, gl.

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 2:30 pm
by Squirt
That was great story, It almost brought tear to my eyes. No joke..

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 3:06 pm
by Draquish
I went to UCF last winter...

Its full of white people. :( ITS SO BORING UP THERE!!

Enjoy Uni. ;) I'll try to hit you up whenever I'm on AIM to see how you're doing. :P

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 3:10 pm
by MrJoey
Lol, story of a person with no self control at all.

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 3:17 pm
by Power
Take care of yourself!

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 3:25 pm
by _Lana_
GL with life Master :)

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 3:30 pm
by marjin_boo
I've been there. It really consumed your life, not for long but you know what you missing after you come out of the virtual world.

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 3:38 pm
by satman83
Homie wrote:Crack is a hell of a drug.


COLDDDDDDD BLOODED

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 4:14 pm
by woutR
I think this only goes for people who really get addicted to games.
It hit me as well last week so I forced myself to not go on the computer for a week.

I've uninstalled my games as well. It's pretty sad that I had to do that but I had(have) no self control anymore, just wanted to game.
So I just removed all temptation and I use the computer to download movies and visit forums nowadays.
I really recognize myself in Masta's post and I'm glad I'm not still in a state where I lol at it and claim I'm not addicted.

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 4:52 pm
by DonBebek
Well it's good you decided to quit. I spend a lot of time on the comp but it never interferes with my social life so I don't need to quit gaming completely. There is one guy from my class that is the same like you were, but he seems very proud of it. When I ask him what did he do during the holidays he just said that he played wow 15 hours per day:D

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 5:09 pm
by iGod
Touching story.. but the myspace part makes it so ironic

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 5:37 pm
by Tasdik
I remember back in the day when I had just started sro on Venice *2+years ago* you were one of the first friendly/nice/awesome people I'd met on SRO. Good times :wink:

Masta I have a crazy amount of respect for you quitting. Props to you bro :love:

Re: My last post ever. My story.

Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 5:48 pm
by Crumpets
MrJoey wrote:Lol, story of a person with no self control at all.


Agreed.


Nobody's fault but your own that you got addicted to vidya games.