I Can't Move on?!

[crazyskwrls]

that suks....

here give me a hug

[Pham]

can all of you noobs stop typing in size .1 font, i keep having to copy and pasting it and see what it says, anyways sorry for your lost.

[sirs1ayer]

i lol'd when i clicked the spoiler.
anyways
Sucks that you didn't have the balls, hopefully you will learn from your mistakes.

It would be worse if you would have been with her and loved her and then she died?
or
you should check if she had a journal or something, it could be epic.

(don't ban meh)

[crazyskwrls]

^ >.< wth....

the kid is extremely depressed and you say stuff like that? besides he already told u how she passed...

[sirs1ayer]

^ >.< wth....

the kid is extremely depressed and you say stuff like that? besides he already told u how she passed...

mah bad, (she died on her way to find him)
not really, just trying to make it epic fail.

[Inuyasha584]

Dont be an ***, he lost someone he cares about, show some respect.

[sirs1ayer]

go to her grave and say something along the lines of "i'm sorry it took so long Lily, but i'm finally here. I wish i could have been there sooner to be with you and make your life that much more amazing, but i just couldn't find you. I love you dear.
bye

but, then again, if you really loved her you wouldn't need advice on what to do on an online forum would you?
I guess you're just venting though.

In that case, it would really suck if your long lost love died. I hope you will move on but never forget her.

[IceCrash]

I'm really sorry to hear that dude... seriously..

Best advice i can give, is, get into some kind of team sport, get to know new people.
That's the best advice i can give, cause there's really not that much i could say..
sorry again

[Doron]

wow.



That story just gave me a slap in the face through the screen.


just... wow.

Skip class. You at least can do that, dammit

****.

[Squirt]

Thats odd, Theres a girl that I've been knowing since 2nd grade been in my class every year also o.o.

And sorry mate =/

[Krevidy]

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I wish you the best Rakion.
R.I.P. Lily.

[Rakion]

I haven't slept last night... nor i can today. Every time i close my eyes her face with the same smile, her endless beauty just kept flashing on and on, and on. I cried silently while crouching on the corner of my room(boarding house). I thought what you guys said. and it helped a lot, if you guy have just flamed me... then i guess i will be joining with her sooner or later.... lets answer some quotes shall we?...

But i can understand if distance is a problem.

Yes it is... I'm currently at Cebu right now.

I'm so sorry mate ... I dont know what would I do if this happens to me ... I really cant know how you feel ... must be awful ... I'm really sorry...

Gawd I'd died if this happens to me... Just be strong... those 2 stories are really really sad... almost made me cry

I will... tnx

go to her grave and say something along the lines of "i'm sorry it took so long Lily, but i'm finally here. I wish i could have been there sooner to be with you and make your life that much more amazing, but i just couldn't find you. I love you dear.
bye

but, then again, if you really loved her you wouldn't need advice on what to do on an online forum would you?
I guess you're just venting though.

In that case, it would really suck if your long lost love died. I hope you will move on but never forget her.

I'm at Cebu right now.. the distance of Cebu from my home town is like 1000 miles and plus you got to go over night by sea.... the only thing that i can do right now is to continue my studies and make her my main inspiration to never give up on my studies... i know she wanted me to do this... to pursue my dreams...

if ever i may go back to my home town 1st of all i will going visit her grave pay some respects, tell her everything that i want to tell her from the start,the feeling that i have been hiding from the start, and somehow find her family and watch some pics. of her before she died. and things like that i really want to know how she really was doing after the elementary graduation.
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Why post at the forums???
I have nothing to say this to anyone close to me, i have nowhere to run, I'm a transferee i'm still on the process of making new friends, i have few but then when i talk about it... they would just suddenly change the topic or ignores me. somehow i felt soo alone , my parents dont give a heck about this problem, they didn't help me. i have no one else to say this too. all the pain is now pressured into my heart i dont know what would i do... i already skipped class, i want to stay in my room all day. And when everything is okay and i feel any good to come back to normal. then i might as well forget about waiting her for my dear life has been doing until now.

my distance from Cebu to Butuan (my home town)

thats how far... the only possible thing that i can go back to butuan is to wait for the semestral break. That would be the last week of October.

[Inuyasha584]

got any pictures of her

[Rakion]

got any pictures of her

I have only 4 around and its not even close up! darn..... i wish i have bought her pic at the graduation... then i could die happy joke

added: and i left it at home -.-"

[Priam]

Oi, what's all this nonsense about you dieing, did you dye your hair black :/

[Rakion]

Oi, what's all this nonsense about you dieing, did you dye your hair black :/

O_o?... what do you mean?... please quote some thing did i say wrong?
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anyways i'm now looking forward to see another girl i felt the same spark at her at my first sight when i was 1 yrs. college 2nd sem., but shes back home at butuan... i cant make a far relationship. and plus... she got the same Family name as lily... i have a feeling there cousins that have never met cause i asked her before but she didnt know lily... tionks... i'm currently looking forward to see Edna...

[Rainigul]

I'm so sorry, that's such a sad story... One day, you can visit her grave and you should come up with what to say to her, and write her a note and bring flowers, and if you believe in an afterlife, then you can one day meet her there But you'll just have to wait, she'll wait for you
It's a good idea to focus on your studies, as you said it is what she wanted you to do. Use her as your inspiration and get far in life, but never forget her and keep her alive by always remembering her.
If you grow old and you still remember and love her, maybe you could even be buried next to her (if the spot next to her is still open).

You will get over her someday I am sure (if you don't, it's really romantic and sad), but make sure to never forget her.
Remember though, she wouldn't want you to be sad your whole life and she'd want you to move on, so just remember the good times and try to move on (but never forget!).

I just read what you said before, and that would be great if they were cousins your life could be like a really great story.

I'm really sorry and if you wanna talk then you can pm me (but I will probably only be able to talk on pm, I am very busy right now).

P.S. It's stories like these that make me believe in some sort of afterlife, I think she deserves to have one, because she seems sweet and died much too young.

Good luck with everything.

[Rakion]

@ Rainigul:
yes I believe on after life as well. I also hope to see her again at past life, But things gota change now. i have nothing to give to her but tears that i cant even use. The only thing i poses is my endless love that never seemed to fade, yet this eternal flame of love will still continue even though i may have another. Her memories will carry on (from: Black Parade - My Chemical Romance)...

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I have only one single pic. that i have about Edna. I copied it from her USB without permission... well i was the leader and she one of my members and i told her to send the copies through email but then she lend me her USB and i have a nothing to do after i printed the data... i got bored and took one of her best position of all pics.

SRF...meet Edna Sanchez...Shes at the middle...

idk about you guys but i found the same spark that i felt on Lily... I like her... i like her a lot.

all of them are my past classmates when i was still learning at my Hometown

Edited:the guy on the right is one of my DotA buddies!:D

[hootsh]

Damn...those 2 stories at the beginning really made me sad.. ...try reading them while listening to Evanescence, nearly made me cry.

Not being insensitive or anything, but i really have to say this mate..sh1t happens...it happens to everyone, you just believe in these 2 words and you'll be good, i had sh1t happening to me all the time, believe me...there are other things waaay worse than that, again..not being insensitive or anything..but imagine if you were already with her..you'd be 10x as sad as you're now.

IMO its better for you that you didnt talk to her in the first place.

DO NOT over think this, you'll only get worse...you could have a depressive mood that lasts for months, just from over thinking one thing.

Again, dont take this offensively..please dont think i'm being insensitive or anything..but for one last time: Sh1t happens, move on.

IMO all these hugs and crap will only make you feel worse.

[blackfalcon]

sorry to hear that man but its good thats ur trying to move on. just dont drive the other girl away by always talking about lily. and dont try and use this girl as a "replacement".

[Tobi]

hehe.... I feel you brother, more than you can imagine
I couldnt be with the girl I loved because of her family, she loved me too. When things were starting to loosen up, we decided to meet somewhere then the day before I could see her sweet face..... she died

[Doron]

****.

****.

****.

I just Farking teared, okay?

I Farking dropped a tear on ym arm...

You shold write a book about this, then use profits you make to set up the Lily Foundation to support people who lost their children on a young age, or for friends of a passed away person... Or almost death victims...

Think it over...

[Inuyasha584]

@ Rainigul:
yes I believe on after life as well. I also hope to see her again at past life, But things gota change now. i have nothing to give to her but tears that i cant even use. The only thing i poses is my endless love that never seemed to fade, yet this eternal flame of love will still continue even though i may have another. Her memories will carry on (from: Black Parade - My Chemical Romance)...

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I have only one single pic. that i have about Edna. I copied it from her USB without permission... well i was the leader and she one of my members and i told her to send the copies through email but then she lend me her USB and i have a nothing to do after i printed the data... i got bored and took one of her best position of all pics.

SRF...meet Edna Sanchez...Shes at the middle...

idk about you guys but i found the same spark that i felt on Lily... I like her... i like her a lot.

all of them are my past classmates when i was still learning at my Hometown

Edited:the guy on the right is one of my DotA buddies!:D

are you that guy on the right

[Rakion]

@hootsh - thx dude. i tried to forget, but then it just keeps getting back... but i will prevail. tnx for sharing your love dude.

****.

****.

****.

I just Farking teared, okay?

I Farking dropped a tear on ym arm...

You shold write a book about this, then use profits you make to set up the Lily Foundation to support people who lost their children on a young age, or for friends of a passed away person... Or almost death victims...

Think it over...

Tnx for the concern. I deeply Respect that.

I thought about making it last night... and somehow you also got the same idea...

And dont try and use this girl as a "replacement".

I'm not gona use her a replacement, yes. i said i felt the same spark... but It was only different. I was just a bit less strong, but only longer. I felt that somehow she could be Lily's sent... i think she telling me to use her cousin or something... SHIT WHAT SHOULD I DO?!

[dom]

Won't lie...kind of...creepy.

[Rakion]

Won't lie...kind of...creepy.

why? i want to know please. please tell me. I'm not going zerk ok... or you send me through PM. at least theres privacy

[rek]

I'm not gona use her a replacement, yes. i said i felt the same spark... but It was only different. I was just a bit less strong, but only longer. I felt that somehow she could be Lily's sent... i think she telling me to use her cousin or something... SHIT WHAT SHOULD I DO?!

I know filipinos are all into the spiritual ghost thing.. i know. But.. yeah, as dom said.. that is a little weird.

[Rakion]

I'm not gona use her a replacement, yes. i said i felt the same spark... but It was only different. I was just a bit less strong, but only longer. I felt that somehow she could be Lily's sent... i think she telling me to use her cousin or something... SHIT WHAT SHOULD I DO?!

I know filipinos are all into the spiritual ghost thing.. i know. But.. yeah, as dom said.. that is a little weird.

mumultuhin nya ako! translation: She gona haunt me!

[Priam]

This is what anime does to the world.

[Rakion]

This is what anime does to the world.

If you were referring about me getting haunted, then you must know that it has been already been centuries ago that hauntings are apparently real!

To be honest i pretended to be normal, sarcastic and though everything was a joke.! But deep down inside I'm still depressed. 6 years... i wasted my life for nothing...