You’re now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
You: Hello from the Illuminati
You: ?
Stranger: really?
You: Yes
Stranger: oh man i wish
You: I’m here to answer your questions
You: I’m your local representative
Stranger: hm
You: It’s not coincidence that you began chatting with me
Stranger: i don’t know where to start
Stranger: how so?
You: These things are not by chance
You: Ask away
Stranger: what is the meaning of life?
You: The meaning of life is to evolve into a super-massive intelligent consciousness that will peel back what we perceive as reality to become re-united with the God-head
You: God-head is a universal term, and not religiously specific
Stranger: so basically ascension?
You: Basically
Stranger: do you think humanity is far from there now?
You: It happens when you die too, but that’s the goal overall
Stranger: being able to ascend i mean
Stranger: oh
Stranger: well then
Stranger: how disappoiting
You: Humanity will evolve to something entirely different before ascension
You: Monkey bodies aren’t exactly equipped
Stranger: oh oh
Stranger: will we be more like dinosaurs?
Stranger: neat teeth and claws and all?
You: If you’re not going to take this seriously, I’ll move on to my next appointment
You: I’m very busy
Stranger: no
Stranger: i am
Stranger: i’m sorry
You: Dinosaurs
You: ?
Stranger: well i like dinusaurs
You: Got it
Stranger: pretend i can spell
Stranger: and
Stranger: well
Stranger: i mean they have a lot of natural defences and they look like they could be sturdy bodies
Stranger: empowerment you know
You: I understand
You: This is more inter-connected consciousnesses
You: Like the internet, but for brains
Stranger: i see i see
Stranger: what will happen to our physical bodies?
You: Most likely, there will be a class of humans that do the labor
You: And a class that create the ascension
Stranger: isn’t that a bit heartless?
You: Aren’t we a bit heartless now?
You: No different
Stranger: i see
Stranger: who will decide who gets to ascend and who gets left behind?
You: It’s genetics, but no one will call it that
You: We’ll find some way to avoid the politically incorrectness
You: See
You: Have you ever met someone who you just look at and understand?
You: Immediately?
You: That’s because your genes are talking to each other
Stranger: yes
Stranger: oh
Stranger: really?
Stranger: how are they doing that?
You: Through light
You: It’s a sort of frequency
Stranger: interesting
Stranger: but are you making this up?
Stranger: i know you have to stay in character and all
Stranger: but that’s some wicked neat stuff
Stranger: is any of it true?
You: Well, I am a member of the Illuminati
You: I mean, I’m a person too
Stranger: don’t be silly
You: What do you mean
Stranger: and don’t go
Stranger: this is a game
Stranger: but just because its over you don’t have to go
Stranger: i like your brain
Stranger: you could tell me things
You: I know I can, which is why we connected
You: Ask away
You: I told you, these things don’t happen by accident
You: This is a random connection generator
You: Mostly noise
You: But some signal
Stranger: interesting
Stranger: what did you study in school?
You: Secret societies and cults
Stranger: lol
You: Magick and ritual
Stranger: really?
You: Well, inbetween classes
Stranger: i would have thought it was something more like physics
Stranger: biochemistry
Stranger: something
You: Are you in school?
Stranger: i will be in the fall
Stranger: i took a year off, i’m making money
You: Well, that’s always good
You: You think I’m joking about the Illuminati, but I really am a member
You: This anonymous chat intrigues me
You: Because it’s like screaming secrets into the wind
Stranger: you know i honestly don’t know whether i should tell you i don’t believe you or not
Stranger: because you’re right, but i don’t think that someone worthy of a place in the order of illuminati would just give their secrets up like that
Stranger: i don’t think it works that way
You: You don’t think so?
You: You don’t think that we haven’t screamed our secrets into the wind for centuries?
You: That’s the entire premise of the Order
You: To Illuminate what is hidden
You: Geometry, Architecture, Science
Stranger: hm
You: It’s just that the masses are never ready to hear it
You: So it’s disregarded as magic and heresy
Stranger: can you tell me a secret?
You: Until there’s a tipping point, and then everyone ALWAYS knew that the Earth was round
Stranger: is mona lisa really what davinci thought he would look like as a woman?
You: That’s not from my side of the Order
Stranger: how so?
You: The Italians have a separate group
You: It’s sort of a sydicate
You: *syndicate
Stranger: oh dear
Stranger: i don’t know how to break this to you
Stranger: da vinci was not italian
You: I would check that if I were you
Stranger: lol okay
Stranger: i’m kidding
Stranger: i’m just messing with you
Stranger: come on
You: Got it
Stranger: do you really expect me to believe you in illuminati?
You: Well, your belief doesn’t really change the fact
You: So, it really doesn’t matter
Stranger: tell me some secrets then
You: I could tell you THE secret
You: If you wanted
Stranger: yes!
Stranger: YES
Stranger: YESSS
You: OK. It might not seem that spectacular
You: But here goes
Stranger: please don’t yell the game and disconnect
You: Well, let me set it up first
You: k?
You: It’s better that way
Stranger: okay
You: You know how identity works?
Stranger: yes
You: how we identify ourselves?
You: we create a context
You: a story
You: a narritive
You: that builds our personality and such
You: who we are, what we like, our morals, values, etc..
You: with me?
Stranger: yes
You: *narrative
You: k
You: So when you start stripping away the layers
You: you’re left with a sort of witness to reality
You: I’m sure you’ve done this exercise before
You: yes?
Stranger: no
Stranger: never
You: ok, well
You: try going back and back and back
You: to say, “I am not my legs
You: and dissasociate with your legs
You: I am not my arms
You: and dissassociate with your arms
You: I am not my torso
You: and so on
You: then, you get to your head, eyes, nose, mouth
You: you are not these things
You: and then you get to your thoughts
You: and you say, “I am not my thoughts”
You: and dissasociate yourself with your thoughts
You: right
Stranger: yes
You: ok
You: so you get to this place where you’re not your thoughts
You: but you still are
You: the sort of Descartes existence
You: I think therefore I am
You: you there?
Stranger: m’m
You: k
You: So once you’re there
You: This is the secret
You: You start looking around
You: You are the same as everything else
You: Made of the same stuff
You: So what are you?
You: I AM
You: is all you are
You: And I AM
Stranger: you know i don’t really think i am anything. me is just a bunch of chemical processes that happen for a while
Stranger: and then it’s gone
You: Well, then you’re a deconstructionist
You: And you’re wrong, but that’s ok
Stranger: don’t put me in boxes
You: lol
Stranger: how am i wrong?
You: Once you start the definition
You: Then you begin down the road of definition
You: And you put yourself in a box
You: to be one thing or another
You: What I’m saying is that I AM
Stranger: but i disagree
You: and when I say I AM and you say I AM it’s the same I
Stranger: i am not, i happen
You: So you occur?
Stranger: yes
Stranger: and then i die
Stranger: and it’s over
Stranger: it’s not a lasting thing
Stranger: well
Stranger: you could say i am stardust
Stranger: because really
Stranger: but i’m not something
You: Right
You: At this point, it’s semantics
You: because when you try to describe it
You: you lose it
Stranger: yes
You: that’s why it’s secret
You: because it can’t be spoken
You: name of God, etc…
Stranger: yes
Stranger: exactly
You: So
You: The secret is, that no one can tell it
You: because they can’t, literally tell it
You: They can only show it
You: through art, geometry, architecture
Stranger: well this is no secret
Stranger: i knew this already
You: I know
You: I knew it would underhwhelm you
You: but
You: I hope it was entertaining
Stranger: how old are you?
You: 30
You: you?
Stranger: 20
You: It’s one of those things, the internet
You: No coincidences
Stranger: what is this, really. are you just very bored at work or what?
You: lol
You: first time on omegle
You: just testing the enlightenment waters
You: *I’m really 29, getting ready to be 30
You: just practicing 30
Stranger: oh then you have come as far as it goes, people here are dumb
You: yeah, I figured
Stranger: i mean i’m not the brightest bulb in the room, but seriously
Stranger: it’s like running through mud
You: like I said, a lot of noise and some signal
You: it’s mostly hormones
You: just acting like hormones
Stranger: what do you do for a living?
You: I’m an executive at a Fortune 500 retailer
Stranger: what in the world is fortune 500?
You:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fortune_500Stranger: oh my!
You: Yeah, told you. Illuminati
You: lol, you still don’t believe me
Stranger: so basically you’re making charts and wasting time?
You: Something like that
Stranger: i see
You: I spent my earlier years on the internet
You: when it was young
You: and people were interesting
You: this reminds me of that
Stranger: i wish i had been there
You: what do you want to go to school for?
Stranger: i’m going to be an astrophysicist
Stranger: really
You: nice
You: money in that?
Stranger: i’m not in it for the money
Stranger: i mean i don’t really know anything about life and space and time and all that jazz
Stranger: and you gotta start somewhere
Stranger: everything else bores me
You: space is one of my favorite topics
You: huge fan
Stranger: obviously
You: I love that we have to comfort ourselves from our ignorance of reality with stories and half truths
You: otherwise we couldn’t handle it
You: space is especially that way
Stranger: how so?
You: It’s easy to explain away space and the way it behaves
You: but we have so much that contradicts our theories, and we just put those on the back burner for later
You: because it’s convenient
You: and we can’t handle thinking we’re entirely wrong
You: *most of us
Stranger: i see where you’re going with this and i agree
Stranger: sort of
You: you’ll be a good student at school!
You: you see both sides of an argument
Stranger: i used to be pretty brilliant actually, before i fried my brain
Stranger: and now i want it back so i’m going back to school
You: acid? ecstacy?
Stranger: oh no
Stranger: it was much simpler than that. but i don’t want to talk about it
You: no problem
You: you’ll do great
Stranger: are you ever going to tell me what you really do?
You: What do you mean?
You: I did
Stranger: then why am i not believing you
You: I’m not going to tell you the company
Stranger: no no
Stranger: but illuminati?
You: yup
You: it’s a heritage thing
You: I didn’t really have a choice
You: I mean, you can choose to not be a part of it, but it’s in your blood
Stranger: why do i not believe you
You: have you ever believed anyone that has told you they were a member of the Illuminati?
Stranger: you’re the first person who has told me that
You: well, there you go
You: you’re new at it
Stranger: what are you getting out of all this?
You: A member of my family was a spy
You: He knew so many secrets and codes, it almost drove him nuts
You: So, he would drive at high speeds on his motorcycle and scream all the codes he knew at the top of his lungs
You: It’s kind of like that
Stranger: you studied psychology or something like that didn’t you
You: Well, I’m a student of human behavior, but I don’t have a degree or anything
You: Why do you think that?
You: Because of my cunning conversational abilities?
Stranger: partially
Stranger: you’re very good at what you do
You: Well, thanks
You: It’s nice to hear from someone once in awhile, seriously
You: So many people are out to get me, it’s rare that I get a compliment that isn’t a veiled threat
You: Or an attempt to get close to me for more control or power
Stranger: what do i have to do to make you drop the act and tell me what this really is all about? because you’re good. but you’re not excellent
You: What makes you think I have another agenda beyond what I have already revealed to you?
You: We don’t know each other
You: I have nothing to gain
Stranger: i think you just like messing with people
Stranger: for no reason
Stranger: it’s like entertainment, only better
You: It would be hard to tell if that were true
You: And hard to tell if it weren’t
Stranger: i mean
You: So I’m not sure what to tell you
Stranger: your story is excellent
Stranger: really
Stranger: and well thought out and all
Stranger: but you keep sabotaging yourself
Stranger: it’s like you want me to see through it
Stranger: i don’t know what to make of you
You: I think you’re probably seeing the two ‘sides’ of my personality
Stranger: and in comes the psychological twist
You: My subtle human side and my ball busting psychopath side
You: It’s sort of a good angel bad angel thing
You: Is that it?
Stranger: yes
Stranger: closer
Stranger: better
Stranger: but you didn’t answer my question
Stranger: why?
You: Well, I’m getting closer anyway
Stranger: to what?
You: There are no coincidences
You: And
You: I know that Fate (capital F) works through me for various purposes, it’s sort of a talent
You: So, when you ask why
You: I can only attempt to shoot at a reason in the dark
You: That Fate (capital F) wanted us to get to know each other (on an anonymous internet thing)
You: And that our connection will have some effect on you, and some effect on me, and we’ll have our paths altered for it
You: That’s a general shot in the dark
Stranger: yes
You: based on experience
Stranger: i already know this
You: Oh, so you’re Plato and I’m Socrates, or the other way around?
You: lol
You: You’re asking me why when you already know the answer
Stranger: no
Stranger: i mean
Stranger: iknow all the grand meaning to all this and the big whys and becauses
Stranger: i want to know what drives you
Stranger: like
Stranger: pick your scull apart and look inside your brain
Stranger: -c +k
You: gotcha
Stranger: tell me
You: You sound like an ex girlfriend
You: lol
Stranger: don’t be silly
You: Except she’s older than 20
Stranger: tell me
Stranger: no wait
Stranger: why is she an ex?
You: You want to know what drives me?
You: She’s an ex because she wanted to know the same answer and couldn’t handle the truth of it
Stranger: and the plot thickens
Stranger: yes i want to know what drives you pretty please
You: The truth is that I am on an unyielding quest to drive humanity towards a better evolved state by allowing people to destroy themselves through engaging in the most satisfying of desires
You: It’s sort of a mission statement
Stranger: and what is the most satisfying of desires?
You: whatever you desire
You: is most satisfying
Stranger: there’s a flaw in your plan
You: do tell
Stranger: well
Stranger: what i desire is to know why you did all this and why you do all this, but when you tell me i will not be destroyed because it’s only then it really gets interesting
You: I see
You: You’re hung up on why
Stranger: very much so
You: when there really might not be an answer
You: let’s start from the beginning for a second
Stranger: allright
You: coming into this conversation, I didn’t know that you were going to enjoy the conversation
You: but
You: I continued anyway
You: and, I had been going on with a similar conversation for awhile
You: knowing, from experience, that some interesting conversations would arise
You: this being the most interesting so far
You: What you’ve done, is to poke and prode and understand better the methods and tactics of the conversation
You: The real question is, and I think you have the answer, why do you want to know why?
You: I’ve only continued based on your questions on wanting to know more
You: So, the answer to your question why is
You: Because you want to know
Stranger: i see what you did there
You: It’s you that wants to know
You: and I am obliging
Stranger: don’t make this about me
You: but it is about you
You: I’ve had the same conversation in a load of chats
You: but this one progressed
You: I’m the same
You: you’re different
You: so, logic would lead us to the assumption that it’s you
You: I’m just saying
You: Sorry for the mindfuck
You: Hope I was gentle
Stranger: don’t worry about it
Stranger: allright
You: You seem ok with it
Stranger: i’m gonna tell you why i want to know
You: I’m always afraid of breaking something
Stranger: because you see
Stranger: usually when this happens, i play the part of you
Stranger: and this time i didn’t because you had your whole illuminati thing set up
Stranger: and how could i disconnect from that
Stranger: i was really bored
Stranger: among other things
You: understood
Stranger: and for a moment i believed you but you kept Farking up
Stranger: so i couldn’t
Stranger: and therefore i want to know why you do this
Stranger: because maybe when you tell me i’ll know why i do this
Stranger: and maybe i’ll learn something
You: so, when you said it was about entertainment
You: was that talking about why you do it?
Stranger: of course
You: but
You: you have to admit that the times you have done it, it has affected people
Stranger: it really has
You: and put them on a path that they weren’t on before
Stranger: i’m not arguing that
You: ok
You: so, is it selfish entertainment to toy with the less strong minded?
You: or is it that you’re a Bodisthava
Stranger: a whatnow
You: placing people on the path to enlightenment
You: lol
Stranger: oh i see
You:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/BodhisattvaStranger: but you’re still not answering
Stranger: i want a simple one sentence answer
Stranger: no mind games
You: ok
Stranger: just tell me
Stranger: why
You: why what
You: I’m serious
You: why do we do it?
Stranger: no
Stranger: why did you do it
You: oh
Stranger: today
Stranger: other days
Stranger: why
You: it’s a good question
You: It’s not that I’m withholding the answer
You: I know it, but can’t really express it
You: it’s more of a magnetic draw
Stranger: magnetic draw? really?
You: well
You: it’s a bad analogy
You: Fate with a capital F called and I answered
Stranger: you do know that you’re not losing the higher ground or anything by telling me, right?
You: What answer do you expect?
You: I enjoy toying with people, yes.
You: but
You: I also enjoy helping people
You: and sometimes it’s the same
You: People decide their own level of involvement
You: some people only want to know about death, or God, or relgion
You: some people ask questions about their family or business
You: I accomidate all those requests and turn a mirror to them
Stranger: a mirror?
You: another bad analogy
Stranger: allright
Stranger: so where do i fall in you categories of people you’ve messed with?
Stranger: +r
You: I wouldn’t call it messing
You: btw
Stranger: talked to
You: I would say you would fall somewhere between novice and apprentice
You: probably closer to apprentice
You: btw, this is a game that everyone plays
Stranger: oh my
Stranger: everyone?
You: of course!
You: why oh my?
You: what were you surprised about?
Stranger: never in my entire time playing mind games with people has anyone ever seen through it to get to the point where i’d call the my apprentice
Stranger: +m
Stranger: so oh my good sir
Stranger: what have i done
You: lol
You: well, you’ve been initiated into the Illuminati of course
Stranger: oh we’re way past that
Stranger: tell me what you really do
Stranger: i deserve to know, don’t you think?
You: of course not, but that’s ok
You: I really did tell you
You: I’m really an executive at a Fortune 500
You: I’m not joking
Stranger: hm
You: Yeah, I mean there are people that work for these companies
You: I am one of them
You: not really too much of a shocker
Stranger: why aren’t you a teacher?
Stranger: you’d make an excellent teacher
You: I am (thank you)
You: I teach all the people I manage everyday
You: I teach my bosses too, but they won’t admit it
Stranger: lol
You: I teach my customers, my lawyers, my accountants
You: and I learn a tremendous amount from them
Stranger: do you have a wife? a house? two and a half kids and a cat and/or dog?
You: something like that
You: you just can’t believe I’m going to go to work tomorrow
You: and live a normal life
You: after having a conversation like this on the internet
Stranger: i can believe it
Stranger: it’s not heard, i mean come on
Stranger: hard
Stranger: wow i really can’t spell
You: well, it sounds like you can’t believe it
You: so that’s what I assumed
You: yup, normal guy
You: with a brainstorm of thoughts all the time
Stranger: see this is another thing that you did wrong
You: tell me
Stranger: you assumed i didn’t believe it because you want me to not believe it, you want me to think of you like some kind of magical mythical being
You: I can’t say you’re entirely wrong
Stranger: i am very right
You: is that wrong?
Stranger: no
You: for me to want to create that assumption
Stranger: not at all
You: oh ok
You: because you said it was wrong
Stranger: okay how do i explain this
Stranger: it’s like we’re playing poker
You: now I’m intrigued
Stranger: and you keep showing me your hand
You: oh
You: you keep asking to see it
Stranger: it’s not “wrong”, but you’re losing the game
You: am I?
Stranger: if this was a game
Stranger: yes
You: I thought we were creating new rules
You: seems like it anyway
Stranger: yes
Stranger: but then you went
Stranger: “i’m regular, what you don’t believe it”
Stranger: and you changed them
Stranger: that is not even ground
You: oh, I see what you’re saying
You: popped the balloon
You: well, I mean, you’ve been asking me to pop it for awhile
You: just got around to it
Stranger: yes
Stranger: well
Stranger: so
Stranger: how does it feel?
You: you are curious to know
You: I can definitely see why
Stranger: why?
Stranger: pray tell
You: well, it’s either that you believe that you have gotten me to a place that I haven’t been, and are asking me how it feels because you have been there bfore
You: *before
You: or
You: you are wondering if the game will continue because you feel that you’ve ‘won’
Stranger: the game is over
Stranger: i want to know because i’ve never been there myself
Stranger: and because i don’t think you have either
Stranger: have you?
You: I have. During my initiation
You: I know you think I’m kidding
You: but I was initiated. there were swords and everything
Stranger: you know i know you’re kidding
You: well, alright
You: if it makes you feel better
You: here’s what’s interesting
You: no one has been able to ‘evict’ my placement of an image before as well as you
You: so, definitely kudos to that
You: but, from my perspective I just have to use it as a learning experience
You: on eviction
Stranger: oh you are like talking to myself from the future
You: to prevent future evictions and also to help evict others
You: lol
Stranger: so
Stranger: how does it feel?
You: well, I think you know
Stranger: no i don’t
Stranger: that’s the point
You: Here’s the thing
You: I can tell you that a nail going through your foot hurts
You: but
You: how does it feel?
You: hard to really describe
Stranger: painful, huh?
You: well, the nail sure
You: this, not really
You: more like cleaning cobwebs
Stranger: what have you learned?
You: like a freshly mopped floor
You: I’ve learned that your ego is one to be reckoned with
You: a word of advice would be to throw that thing away before it takes over
You: *takes more over
Stranger: my ego?
You: well, what’s all this about how does it feel, what have I learned?
You: seems like ego masturbation to me
Stranger: no!
Stranger: i want to know
Stranger: because if you tell me than i’ll know too
Stranger: i told you, the game is over
Stranger: this is even ground
You: well, the game is never over
You: but if it wsa
You: *Was
You: I would tell you that I feel somewhat defeated, but ultimiately I did it to myself
You: by allowing you little by little to look behind the curtain
Stranger: i always imagined it to feel calm
Stranger: clean
Stranger: when someone finally saw through all my lies and whatnot
Stranger: and sort of terrifying too
Stranger: but that’s probably because i lie about more personal things
You: well, I mean if that’s what you’re getting at
You: there is one person (ex GF) who was the same way
You: so it’s a feeling I’ve felt before
You: much more strongly
Stranger: of course
You: this is like that, but 0 calories
You: it’s more of an infantilizing experience
You: than a clean feeling
You: more like a being re-born, baptized, etc…
Stranger: oh i see
You: you feel dirty, but liberated
You: and, even though you don’t believe me, like the Initiation
You: it’s the same principle
You: re-birth
You: trust
You: etc…
Stranger: hm
Stranger: what happens next?
You: well, I am curious if you’re male or female, just for the record
Stranger: make a wild guess
Stranger: wait
Stranger: you can’t tell?
You: my guess would be female
You: but no, I can’t tell
You: nothing obvious
Stranger: why did you guess female then?
You: probably the connotations with my ex-gf having a similar line of thinking
Stranger: what changes if i’m male?
You: something, but nothing relevent
Stranger: well i am a girl so you’re right
You: it’s probably a non-linear thought pattern or something that gives it away
Stranger: as opposed to?
You: well, a few things that made me think you were female are
You: wanting to ‘pick my brain’
You: no guy wants to ‘pick my brain’ and understand me
You: that I’ve met anyway
Stranger: hm
Stranger: interesting
You: usually it’s because you are either in a relationship
You: or were in a relationship with someone like me
You: or that I reminded you of
You: and that you want to understand them, by asking me questions that you can’t ask them
Stranger: oh my goodness mister, you’re losing your touch
You: lol
You: or it’s just that you’re a psychopath too
You: you don’t live in vegas do you?
Stranger: sorry
Stranger: and you’re wrong you know
Stranger: we’re not psychopats
You: oh no
Stranger: sociopaths, maybe
Stranger: but we’re not psychotic
You: true
You: you are right
You: the reason I ask about vegas
You: is because I just met someone strikingly like you in vegas
You: that’s all
You: and you know fate, etc…
Stranger: oh really
Stranger: well i’ve never been to vegas
Stranger: but still this is good news
Stranger: it means there are more people like me out there
Stranger: and that’s always good
You: I’ll tell you that people like us are basically predators by nature
You: maybe not of the hurting variety
Stranger: dinosaurs
You: but of the manipulating variety
You: the puppetry variety
Stranger: well clearly
You: and it doesn’t matter the number of us, just how high up on the food chain we end up occuring
You: and how many puppets
Stranger: see this is what separates you from me
You: do tell
Stranger: i only want to get to people on a personal level, i have no professional ambitions
Stranger: i just want to learn about stars and gravity and such
You: understood
You: but
You: that’s like a lion going into a jungle and becoming friends with the antelope
Stranger: hahaha
You: I hope you’re right, but it’s difficult not to ascend in whatever structure you put yourself in
You: you are a natural leader and people will gravitate towards you and follow you
You: they always have, correct?
Stranger: sometimes, not always
You: of course not always
You: when you put yourself into a system
You: that system aligns itself to your desires
You: not the other way around
Stranger: hm
You: so, learn about gravity, etc…
You: but wherever you apply that knowledge, you’ll gain power
You: go to University
You: and teach
You: you’ll become the golden child of your department
You: hated by the old guard and embraced by the new
You: maybe I’m all wrong
You: who knows
Stranger: who does indeed
You: what’s hilarious, is that this is more like vegas than you realize
You: because I know know anything about you and you don’t really know anything about me
You: as far as personally
You: yet, we know each other better than most of our friends know us
Stranger: true
You: *don’t know anything about you
You: and after we disconnect, poof
Stranger: but we both learned something though, so it’s a win win
You: and what did you learn?
You: you know what I did
Stranger: i learned that i’m brilliant
Stranger: and AWESOME
You: there’s that ego again
You: feel free to toss that in the trash
You: lol
You: it’ll be better in the long run
Stranger: i’m just kidding
Stranger: i learned that i’ve almost achieved what i wanted to achieve all along
You: Excellent. Well stranger, it has been most pleasurable chatting with you
You: This conversation far exceeded my expectations
You: As you have
Stranger: oh so this is it?
You: It appears so
Stranger: you know what i wanted to achieve is androgynity. i don’t like that people are able to tell my sex by the way i type
Stranger: it was never an ego thing
Stranger: except when you made it an ego thing
You: I see
Stranger: also i’m pretty surprised that you gave in
Stranger: and at how long it took
Stranger: usually people crack much much faster
You: well,
You: I recognized it would be more fun to give in
You: slowly
You: but
You: I was surprised at the results
You: as far as your gender and typing
You: it’s sort of impossible to hide
Stranger: how!
You: It’s just woven into the language
You: unavoidable
Stranger: that’s impossible
You: I don’t think so
Stranger: i mean how could it, english isn’t my first language
You: that’s even worse then, for hiding gender
You: because most non-english language are more gender laden than english
Stranger: hm
You: and you have to shed that
You: as well
Stranger: what
You: the gender references
You: una/uno
You: for example
Stranger: what were you like when you were my age?
You: I was wild
You: but more temperate than my wild friends
You: less willing to take risk
You: very friendly but very vendictive
You: very ahem sexually active
You: but stricken with my flaws in a strong way
Stranger: what kind of flaws?
You: laziness
You: procrastination
You: self destructive behavior
Stranger: did you ever overcome it?
You: yes
Stranger: how
You: well
You: it’s going to sound funny
Stranger: tell me
You: but David Allen helped with the laziness and procrastination
You: he wrote a book called Getting Things Done
You: it sort of helped get things out of my head and into action
Stranger: hm
You: and now I get over 200 emails a day with no problems
You: so, that worked for me, but may not work for others
You: and as far as self destructive behavior
You: I had to understand that everyone is programmed to self destruct
You: and that it’s my job to make sure that I control my own self destruction and do it with a purpose
You: rather than it be non-self serving
You: there’s a book
You: called, “The Psychopath’s Bible” by Dr. Christopher Hyatt
Stranger: lol
You: that’s pretty much the guide
Stranger: but you’re not completely cured, are you
You: well, I’m happy with the progress
Stranger: why did you come to omegle?
Stranger: what are you looking for, waiting for?
You: I’m beginning to wonder what your intention is here
You: I would like to think that you are doing some introspection
You: through me
You: because you have indicated several times that I’m like you, except older
Stranger: not this time, this time i’m mostly asking
You: You know, as a side note
You: I’ve mentioned vegas several times
Stranger: yes
You: because the person that I met there, and the coverations we had ended up the same way as this one is
You: and she asked the same exact question, which is just spooky
You: “Why did you come here, what are you looking for”
Stranger: you’re messing with me again, right
Stranger: i mean come on
You: no, seriously
Stranger: odd and all that jazz
You: I will tell you that it was a dancer
You: lol
You: of the exotic variety
Stranger: you can say stripper, it’s not a bad word
You: well, sure a stripper
Stranger: but you didn’t answer my question(s)
You: hold on
You: I’m just trying to tell you that what I think
You: is that I’m not sure of the answer
You: I wasn’t then, and I’m not now
You: the obvious answer is some kind of intellectual companionship
You: the other answer is that the person who I’m connected to needs the connection
You: or a combination of both
Stranger: you’re sort of like a razor, you cut to the truth of things very quickly
Stranger: but what about your wife and kids and dogs, don’t they make you happy?
Stranger: isn’t that enough?
You: well, it is and it isn’t
Stranger: so
You: I’m not a cheater, but I think that we need to continually create new connections with new people
You: that have meaning
You: why I preface that, is because these connections don’t necessarily require anything further, like with the stripper, for example
You: lol, which the fact that I’m telling you this is ridiculous
Stranger: no it’s not
Stranger: it’s meaningful
Stranger: you have to
Stranger: it’s an animal thing
You: I don’t disagree
You: So, that’s the answer
You: I’m here for an intellectual and meaningful connection that I’m missing from co-workers and family
You: and you?
Stranger: i mostly come here when i’m bored
Stranger: today i finished reading the road and i was unimpressed and i wanted to talk to my friends about it but they were all sleeping so i decided omegle why not
Stranger: and then i met you
You: the road sucked
Stranger: I KNOW
You: the movie will be worse
Stranger: i’m still gonna watch it
You: I thought Christian Bale was going to be in it, then I’d watch it
You: but it’s the other dude
Stranger: viggo mortensen, aragorn
You: yeah
You: he was good in that russian mob movie
Stranger: i never saw it
You: hold on a sec, brb
Stranger: k
You: back
You: So
Stranger: i actually think i only have only one question left
Stranger: obviously you’ve met people like us in the real world before, like the stripper
You: right
Stranger: while i haven’t
Stranger: so i’ve never had the chance to, but you did
Stranger: why didn’t you stay with them?
You: There’s a constant struggle in my world between the safe and the risky
You: people like Fire (really her stripper name) are risky
You: people that I’ve surrounded myself with are safe
Stranger: what are you afraid of?
You: I’m not so much afraid as I am wanting to maintain the status quo
You: a home base
You: there’s no way to create power without a firm foundation
You: you’ve seen poliiticans in the news that screw up their power because of a stripper, yes?
You: or tiger woods,
Stranger: well yeah
Stranger: but there are other ways to go around that
You: like what
Stranger: tiger was just cheating, he wasn’t really looking for anything other than sex.
Stranger: i don’t think it’s the same if you have other intentions
You: well, that’s debatable, because even if Tiger was playing chess with them
You: in the press it’s still cheating
You: regardless
You: that’s the reason
You: because I’ve worked hard to build a foundation
You: and shaking that foundation would come at a cost
You: did I think about staying with her? of course
You: did I think of uprooting everything and moving to vegas, riding a motorcycle and starting over
You: yup
You: but, it would require huge sacrifices and people would get hurt, and it would be a selfish decision
Stranger: but you would never be bored again
You: well, the grass is always greener
Stranger: hm.
You: 5 years with Fire, then she would become the status quo
You: would I then drop her and run to a 20 year old I met on the internet through an anonymous chat room?
You: lol
You: it’s too much to change the status quo
Stranger: oh please this was never about you and me
You: all the time
You: (Just kidding chica)
You: my point is, I maintain a status quo, that makes me very happy
You: but I need to reach out to fulfill an itch that I have for these kinds of connections
You: once it’s scratched, then it’s back to status quo
Stranger: well maybe you’re right and you probably are
Stranger: but for some reason that feels like defeat
You: I know. It does sometimes
You: but
You: do you know what it feels like to have a base of power that you can get large things accomplished with?
You: like the lord of a small town?
You: it’s pretty cool, I gotta tell ya
Stranger: lol
You: so, I give up a lot of the maverick tendencies
You: for some pretty cool Caesar shit
Stranger: fair trade
You: consider it channeling the sociopothy into productive gains
You: I wish someone would have told me that 10 years ago, seriously
You: and I wish I would have listend
You: also, put some money in the bank every month, for real
You: even if it’s 10 bucks
Stranger: i used to think that i one day would wake up and be different and stop being crazy
Stranger: you just shattered that illusion
Stranger: well damn
You: well, don’t call it crazy
You: and then you’re not
You: I think of myself as a more evolved human
Stranger: more evolved? how?
You: well, better able to deal with the current socio-political climate
You: an amplified individual
You: you’re not a worker bee
Stranger: really now
Stranger: hiw
You: hiw?
Stranger: -i +o
You: oh
You: you’re not going to want to get in line behind everyone and go to the meeting room, right?
Stranger: right
You: that’s all I’m saying
You: being an amplified individual means that you are fast paced, get things done and are highly social
You: and not bogged down by the corporate environment
You: just making some suggestions
You: not trying to define you
Stranger: i see
You: Well, I have to wake up and conquer in the world in about 3 hours
You: So I really must bid you adieu
Stranger: i don’t know what to say
You: Me neither
You: I can tell you that you rock
Stranger: well so do you
You: It’s funny, that we are total strangers
You: yet when we disconnect I’m going to feel like I’m missing you
You: it’s strange, but necessary
Stranger: i thought about maybe giving you my email or something, but that really doesn’t go anwyhere
Stranger: it’s like
Stranger: this is it
You: you know, I know I keep bringing it up, so dont’ fault me for it
You: but it’s just uncanny how this is exactly the same as what happened in vegas
You: *minus the kissing and rubbing
Stranger: hahhaha
You: but seriously
Stranger: obviously
You: I almost want to try and think about what I would have said but didn’t
You have disconne
